Merry Christmas to All!!

Merry Christmas to everyone and a very happy New Year! I have been so busy lately that I haven't had much time to write. I have had a few people tell me to update which made me smile..didn't realize that many people read this. So woo hoo...go me! Emma has had a great Christmas so far and still isn't finished!! She is one loved and blessed little girl. Anyway, last weekend was my last weekend at the poker room in Jax. :( It was bittersweet to say the least. I will miss almost everyone there but I have to do what is best for Emma. So, I will be working a day job (or two) up here that way I can be home with her at night and hopefully off on weekends. I will go back to work WPT events down there still and can't wait to see everyone. So, thanks to a good friend of mine I will be starting the Insanity work out program tomorrow. I know it is going to kick my butt, but I have to stay motivated. Ya'll can help by encouraging me. I will also be taking weekly pictures (which I will NOT post haha) that will hopefully motivate me. I'm excited to start this! I know it will be hard but in the end it will be worth it...I have a cruise to go on soon!! Hehe. I'm also excited for Saturday to get here...one of my long time friends (since 2nd grade) is getting married!! I can't wait to see her...I know she will be beautiful and I know her mom would be proud! She deserves all the happiness in the world. I also deleted my POF account...I couldn't handle all of the weirdos. ;) I guess I just will be lonely forever..haha. I'm kidding. I will hopefully have more time to update this now that most of the Christmas festivities are over with until Friday night. I hope everyone has had a great Christmas that was spent with family and friends. Also, can everyone please say a prayer for a little girl named Payton who is in Gainesville in the burn unit after stepping on hot coals today...she is 3. :(

Rainy weather is not my friend...

Rainy weather is definitely not my friend...makes me feel depressed for some reason. I just get in these gloomy moods which I guess fits considering the circumstances of the past few days. I am sure it didn't help that Emma went to her Dad's house today either..I miss her but know she needs to spend time with him. Not having her home with me though is something I don't think I will ever get use to..I wrapped a lot of presents today and had the tv on CNN..not a good idea. The coverage of the massacre in CT was on and it made me even more sad. I was wrapping presents for Emma and realized how lucky I am that she is safe but I am heartbroken for those parents and family whose children will not get to open theirs this Christmas. I can't imagine the pain they are feeling and hope to God I never have to. Hopefully I will be done with Christmas shopping soon...if the world doesn't end Friday I promise I will start shopping early this year. Haha! Joke! So, on another note, I'm excited to go down to Florida Wednesday....I have plans to hang out with a friend and work to make some money...what more can I ask for? Apparently I have been missing out but not watching any of the Lord of the Rings movies? So I guess that is the plan for one of my days down there. ;) I think I need to find a church in the area for me and Emma to start going to. I don't want to take her to a too "out there" church but I think it will be good for both of us. Any suggestions of churches in the area? One of my new friends has really got me thinking about it and wanting to see if maybe that's something I'm missing? Anyway, I'm still looking at cruise pictures...I can't wait to go! Hopefully I can save money and go in February or March..eek!! If anyone wants to go too please let me know. I heard the more people that go the cheaper it is! I guess this is enough of my rambling for tonight...I will write more tomorrow. Oh and thanks to everyone who is reading this. I feel special! :) Feel free to comment as well!!

Sunday Funday

Today was a good day. Got Emma some more games for her DS and then we headed back to Lakeland. I took her to Camp Creek church tonight for their Christmas program and it was great! Those little kids did an awesome job! Santa gave Emma a Barbie so she was thrilled. She didn't want to leave after dinner because she was having such a good time. Now I'm home and listening to President Obama speak about the tragedy in CT.....such a sad, sad thing to have happened to all those little kids. I know I will be holding mine a little closer now..as I'm sure everyone else who has children will. Tonight and tomorrow morning I will be saying a prayer for a friend of mine...that everything turns out ok. Can't go into details but prayers wouldn't hurt. Emma is going to her dad's tomorrow for a few days... :( I'm sad but I know she has missed her Daddy. Then the Christmas festivities will start...she will open presents this weekend at her Granny and Papa's house then next week will be craziness! I swear my child will never want for anything..she is loved by so many people and she knows it! We got our Christmas pictures done and I will be mailing them out tomorrow...so if you want one please email me your address to mahryahlmt@yahoo.com :) Here is a preview of one of the pictures..it will be at the bottom of the page if I can figure it out. Haha. Anyway, I just wanted to write a little something...now to get back to laundry and day dreaming about blue water ;) Oh, and I am pretty sure my online dating account will be deleted...I give up! Hahah!!

Woo hoo! Go me!!

Heavy Hearted and Excited at the same time...

I want to start off by saying that I feel so badly for all the parents, teachers, children, friends, and community that had to suffer through that horrible tragedy in Conneticut yesterday. As a Mom I can only imagine the pain those parents are feeling. I couldn't imagine dropping Emma off at school and something like that happening..your child is supposed to be safe at school! What is this world coming to when a grown man goes in and kills innocent children and teachers. People like that do not deserve any recognition and deserve to burn in Hell for Eternity in my opinion. I know that's not good to judge but I just can't fathom how someone's mind works like that. Grr. On a happier note, we got the news yesterday that our family will be expanding next summer! I can't give out names yet because there are some people that don't know yet but hopefully soon. :) I love little babies! I also found out last night that a few people are reading my blog! Woo hoo! Some dealers from the poker room..that is so exciting! I feel important haha. As my last few days at Best Bet approach I'm feeling a little sad. I will miss a lot of the people there but I have promised to visit often. I can't wait to start the next chapter in my life though and see how it goes. I have also made some new friends who are becoming important in my life I will be sad to leave behind. :( I have faith that everything happens for a reason though. So, today Emma and I are going to be filling out and sending Christmas cards so if you would like one and I don't have your address please send it to me. They are adorable if I do say so myself. Oh, and I was told to keep informing people of my online dating site progress...let's just say some people need to first learn how to read then learn the correct way to speak to a girl. Haha...it's atrocious! Once again I'm amazed at how some people were raised apparently. Anyway, it's nap time for me and Emma before work tonight. I hope everyone has an amazing Saturday and stays safe! Until next time...

Still going...

So, it's Thursday. I'm in Florida. Got what I came down here early for accomplished at least. I hopefully will get mine, Emma and Harley's Christmas pictures done tomorrow so that will be one less thing I have to worry about. I've also decided that I will be going on a cruise soon...with friends hopefully. ;) I am still sad about having to leave the Poker Room after next weekend and will miss a lot of people...I've been there for over two and a half years! I think of a lot of my coworkers and some players as family and good friends. I've also decided I need to get out more...not sure about "dating" per se, but definitely going out and doing something that makes me happy. Any takers? Haha I'm definitely just kidding. I did make a Plenty of Fish account two days ago...wow at some of the people on there. I'm not being mean when I say this...but I look at some of the guys who have messaged me and wonder what is going through their minds?!? Some people are very bold is all I'm going to say! I think that going to dinner or doing something fun where I can have adult conversation would be good for me. Don't get me wrong, I love spending time with Emma, but sometimes it's nice to talk to someone who isn't 4. Speaking of her...today she informed me that Ben Wells (if you don't know who he is please YouTube him) was coming to our house and bringing her flowers and a beautiful dress. She also told me that once he gets here to "act normal". LOL. Like I would act any other way! She's a trip! Oh another funny thing...I was at the doctor today and this young teenage boy walks in and wouldn't look at me...he goes over to this bin and starts filling his pockets with stuff. No one else was in there but me so I wasn't sure what he was getting. When the nurse came to get me we walked by the bin but it was completely empty. I asked her what was in it because I thought some young boy stole whatever it was...she starts laughing and said "those are condoms...he can take all the goodies he wants!" Talk about feeling embarrassed...not as embarrassed as he was though. I dont think I could ever go get those...I still have a hard time buying toilet paper! True story. Ask my dad...lol. I always have this fear what if someone sees me buying things like that... On another note, I cant wait to finish my Christmas shopping. I swear next year I will start like in September or October because I'm such a procrastinator! I guess this is enough rambling for tonight. Maybe tomorrow I will figure out how to upload a picture on here if our Christmas ones come out ok. I can't wait to see how well Emma's dress and Harley's outfit match!! I'm so excited! Until the next adventure...haha!

I have a little more time now

Ok, I got the blog customized and I'm loving it! So, I just gave my two weeks notice for the poker room..I'm sad about that as I love working there but living in Georgia and driving back down to Jax every weekend is going to be too much. Also, I've had three great job offers here that I really can't turn down. I will get to make my own schedule and spend weekends with Emma. I just feel it's something I needed to do...I still hope to work back in Jax for the poker events and will remain "on call" in case they need me or I get to missing them too much and want to pick up a shift. I still wish things could have worked out differently but I made the decision to move back for Emma...she gets a lot more now and gets to do more things she wants to do because I can afford more. I know people say they can't believe I moved and so on, but none of the people saying that were helping pay any of my bills or helping take care of my child. Sorry if that sounds harsh but it's the truth. :( Anyway, I will be heading back down to Florida tomorrow for a few days...I'm sad I missed my great aunt's viewing tonight but that's what happens when you have a sick little girl at home. Looks like I will be missing her funeral in the morning tomorrow but she knew I loved her and would be there if I could. While we are in Florida we will be taking our Christmas pictures which I'm excited about...Harley (my dog) and Emma's outfits will match. How cute will that be!? Haha. I can't wait to see them and mail them to everyone. Well this is all for now..Emma is wanting cookies and milk...how can I say no to that? :) Hope everyone has a great night and thanks for reading!

First Blog Post..woo hoo!

Well, here is my first blog post. I'm excited to finally have an outlet for my life..haha. Those who know me will understand this. First off, my posts will be completely random and probably jump from one subject to another pretty regularly..I will not apologize for that. Unfortunately that's how my brain works. LOL. I am laying here trying to decide how personal I want this to be....any suggestions? I'm not sure who will read this or if anyone will. But I think I will be very candid and hopefully can let people understand me better. So, I will write more later on once Emma decides she is finally ready for bed. :) Thanks Amanda Brown for suggesting this blog!