It's Been A While....

Sorry it's been awhile since my last post. Had a lot going on! Emma started pre-k today at my old school and LOVES it! I'm so happy that she likes it. I was worried that she wouldn't adjust to going to school all day but she did awesome. She also got a new brother on 1/15...she is excited about him. :) It's definitely taken me some time to adjust to that but I'm sure it will be a good thing in Emma's future. I deactivated my personal FB because I wasn't ready to see all the pictures but I prayed that I would have peace with it and I do now. :) So, I will be reactivating it soon! I've also started seeing someone who I met online...and he's not a creeper! Woo hoo! Haha! He is a nice guy and Emma likes him a lot! We have a lot in common and both understand that we need to take things slowly and just see what happens. So, now I just need to start working somewhere different! I want something that I can do my own schedule or be done with work by the time Emma gets out of school and I want my weekends free to spend time with my boogie bear. Also, on another note, please say a prayer for Emma's Great Great Uncle Bill who had a heart attack today..he is in stable condition and they will be doing a heart cath tomorrow at 1. Anyway, I will be updating more often so please keep checking! :) Hope everyone had a great Thursday!

Moving on...

It's been a few days since my last post. Not a lot has gone on really. Just been hanging out with Emma and relaxing! We are trying to decide if she will be doing a few upcoming pageants..we just have to find a new dress since we sold her other because it was too short. She asks every day if it's pageant day. LOL. We are looking at a purple one and she really wants it so we will see. We've also not been able to find a pre-k for her. Every single one here we have looked into has a super long waiting list. :( So, we have been working on things at home to keep her up with the rest of the 4 year olds. Now on another note, I've done a lot of thinking and finally realized what it is I think that will make me happy. I need to move on from my past and start looking forward to my future and allowing myself to be happy. I am not waiting on "what ifs" and I now know that I deserve to be happy..not just for myself but for Emma too. So, now I'm excited to see what the future holds...might even have a date! Haha. I have also applied for a couple of jobs here in Valdosta so hopefully something happens soon. I'm sad that Emma will have to go to daycare instead of pre-k but any kind of socialization will be beneficial. Yesterday, my niece, Jaylynn aka Willis, turned 5! That blows my mind! She is such a beautiful little girl and it's craziness that she was the first little girl that had my heart! Emma came 5 months and 2 days later.. :) I guess this is all for now. I have to pack to head down to Florida tomorrow evening. I have a doctor appointment Friday morning then will be working at the Poker Room Friday and Saturday. I'm excited to be filling in down there! I'm sad that one of the girls' that works there mother passed away but I'm looking forward to seeing everyone! :) Hope everyone has a great night!

New Year, New Me.

Well, it's 2013. What a heck of a year 2012 was...I'm praying that this year will bring way better things my way. Heck, losing my family, moving more than I would have liked, Emma being sick and then brain surgery...I'm just done with it! I'm tired of feeling depressed and dwelling on the "what-ifs" or "might have beens." I'm just over it.  I will say that I feel like because of all of the things I've been through this year I am a stronger person but I'm hoping that God feels like he has tried me enough...lol. I am hoping that this year bring happiness and good health for both Emma and myself. I'm tired of her always being sick and one of my resolutions is to be more proactive in getting doctors to help figure out what is wrong with her. It's so frustrating when something is wrong with your child and no one can tell you exactly what....it sucks. I'm also hoping to find a job or two here in Valdosta and get stuff situated for us. I'm so thankful to have a supportive family that helps me and Emma but I'm ready to move on for me and her. I think I just need to let go of the past and look forward to what the future has in store for us. I am going to start treating people the way they treat us...some should be excited and others...well, that's another story. I have learned over the past year that relationships of any kind are a two way street. That includes family, friends and guys. I'm just so over making effort for all of the above and getting nothing in return so here's to a new me. Tomorrow I'm also starting the "Insanity" workout program. Wish me luck. I want to feel better about myself so that is the first step. :) Tomorrow will start a new life for me and my child....I'm looking forward to big things this year so hopefully I'm not disappointed!!