Been a little while...

It's been a little while since I've written. Not much has happened, just been working and being a mommy! Emma got a horse on Saturday 1/30/16 named Willow and she is in love! I think it's a mutual feeling though. Emma has been sick since last week so I took her to the doctor today for what I thought would be a routine appointment for fever, upset tummy and ear infection. Little did I know...while we were in the appointment her doctor asked what the dermatologist had said about Emma's hands and feet peeling when we were there last. The dermatologist gave us creams to try that didn't work then basically said he had no idea what was causing the peeling. She said to hang on and walked out of the room. When she came back in, another doctor was behind her (I didn't recognize this lady, and I know all of the doctors there) She introduced her as Dr. Laura and said she has been a dermatologist for 20 years and asked if she could look at Emma. I of course said I didn't mind so she began examining her hands and feet and asking if they itched, burned, or got sweaty all of which the answers were no. She looked at Emma's fingernails and pointed out that they have "pitting" which is dents in her actual fingernails. She then asked if Emma has joint pain....as soon as she said that I got a weird feeling. I said yes and she then asked if Emma has ever been tested for Rheumatoid Arthritis. I said yes she had, but when she was 2 or 3. Dr. Laura then looked at Emma's doctor and said that either she could or she would, put in a referral for a pediatric rheumatologist. :/ She feels like Emma either has A) Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis or B) a type of psoriatic psoriasis which can also cause joint pain. Those that have been following Emma's medical issues will know she has randomly ran fevers too and she said that both of those can cause random fevers and can come from immune issues. So, I guess the point of this blog is to ask for prayers for my boogie bear. She will have to go through more testing and while I'm praying it's not the RA, I'm hoping for answers finally. We did get some new creams to try that will help if it's the psoriasis. Fingers crossed. I will definitely update as we figure out what is going on...


On another note, going to these appointments or when Emma is sick makes me get in such a weird/angry mood. I do not wish that her Dad and I were still together by any means, it just makes me sad/mad that I have to do this by myself. And I don't mean that my family doesn't help because they are a HUGE help to me and Emma, but you know what I mean. I just wish I had someone that was here to wake up in the middle of the night with me when Emma is sick or just to help do stuff when her and I are both tired from being up and not getting enough sleep. When I feel like this I get even more upset because I LET myself get upset about it haha. I like to take pride in the fact that I am a strong, single mom and generally don't NEED anyone, but there are times when it seems like life throws one thing at you after another and sometimes you just want someone to come home to or ask how your day was or just give you a hug. Anyways, I guess today just happens to be one of the few days I start feeling sorry for myself, so now, I'm going to get me some Oreo's and milk then go cuddle next to my boogie bear and thank God that I get to be her mama. Hope everyone has a great week! Until next time...