Winds of Change are Blowin'

Well I'm sure the title is intriguing huh? :) Let's just say, tomorrow will start a new chapter in mine and Emma's life and I think it's finally time. I can't wait to do what's best for her and myself and hope everyone can support my decisions I will be making in the future. Now, about Emma..she is sick again as usual. Fever, cough, congestion. It never ends. So I took things into my own hands and now she has an appointment with an Infectious Disease doctor at Nemours Hospital in Jacksonville on Monday. When we were living down there she was actually supposed to go see him but we ended up moving back but she will be going now and hopefully he has some ideas or can lead us in the right direction. I know some may disagree with my decision about having these tests done but I'm just so tired of not having answers and not being able to help my baby. I'd rather go ahead and get everything done with now than keep prolonging things and her still getting sick with no answers. Anyway, Emma and I are house hunting (to rent) in Homerville so she can keep going to school there and I will be doing massages there soon so it only makes sense to live there. I am trying to be optimistic that everything happens for a reason and when the time is right so hopefully things fall into place soon for us. I'm focusing on being the best mom I can be and making sure she is taken care of work..that's about it. I've learned that no matter how much you *want* something that there are just some things you can't control and you just have to learn to accept that and move on. So, that's what we are doing. I'm not saying things will be easy for us but hopefully the saying is right...Just because it isn't easy doesn't mean it's not worth it. Also, I deactivated my personal Facebook so I'm not even sure if anyone will read this but it's really just for myself to vent on and keep those few that do keep up with us updated. Anyway, I will update again soon and if not before Monday, I will definitely update after her appointment. On another note, please keep the people of Boston in your prayers as they deal with this horrible tragedy. I couldn't imagine something like that happening here. Remember, today we are all Bostonians. Hope everyone has a great week.